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iman's avatar

your guilt, is a sign of your iman, it’s still in there somewhere. from the moment you thanked him for the rain and the trees when you were three. Allah swt put the guilt in your heart for a reason maybe just maybe he wants to pull you closer to him. Never let anyone think that your worship is not enough. From the smallest dua you made while scrambling out the door to the longest sujood on your prayer mat. Allah is the most loving and kind god and even one step towards him alone is enough. I pray that you find the sweetest of Allah in the depth of all your sorrow and grief because in moments like those is when I found Allah and felt his presence like a warm hug he was always there and always will be. I was just too busy looking in all the wrong places. Everything that I had been searching for was found in the humbleness of the ground in the simplest five minute prayer standing in-front of Allah swt.

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C.F. Escher 🥀's avatar

I fucking adore this with every fiber of me. Thank you, this is beautiful 🤎 keep writing

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layla qais's avatar

thank you so much !!

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نیہا's avatar

GODD this touched my soul like no other

You’re gifted. You believe in the religiosity of love but let me tell you there’s another form of it- the way you have written this masterpiece 🤌

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layla qais's avatar

i shared ur comment with all of my friends and have half a mind to print it out and stick it on my wall thank u 🥺

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نیہا's avatar

ANDDDD I love you name so much🫶

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layla qais's avatar

thank u its a pen name 😭

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نیہا's avatar

Oh my😭😭

I wish you all the peace and fortune❤️

Please keep writing

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raman's avatar

Beautiful as always

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liv's avatar

so beautiful, i can feel the love through what you wrote!! you expressed in writing what i never could about religion, so thank you for writing this and publishing it here!

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layla qais's avatar

thank you for reading !!!!

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liv's avatar

<3

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ikran's avatar

this is beautiful and very relatable.

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𝐀𝐧 𝐮𝐧𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞's avatar

Love this ❤︎︎. yes the sky is empty and all the devils are here, scaring a little girl and threaten her with her mother pain. The way this religion lives out of fear is beyond me.

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C.L's avatar

NEVER STOP WRITING.

This resonated so much with me 🤍🤍😭

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layla qais's avatar

thank you so much im so glad !!!

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C.L's avatar
Feb 20Edited

I Allways thought it I was a bit odd to other Muslims who pray as often. It takes time rebuild faith I enjoyed the writing because u wrote about what normally is a bit of a taboo within the Islamic community 🤍🤍

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layla qais's avatar

i think the muslim community could use a little hint of self-aware sacrilege

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akira s's avatar

gorgeous

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Amal Kiswani's avatar

So fucking beautiful

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برج العقرب's avatar

folks like urself r born this way bc they were born to embody godliness & exhude/spread divinity.

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la.'s avatar

Thank you for writing such a deep, painful, and beautiful piece. I really reflected on it, and it made me think deeply about what faith means.

I believe that spiritual and religious feelings can come from many things—it doesn’t have to be just prayer. True faith, in my view, is the feeling of love and peace with God, not constant fear or anxiety about punishment.

Religion shouldn’t scare us or feel like a burden. It should be a safe place, a comfort. And the things we do with our hearts, our intentions, and our love for people—those might mean more to God than a thousand empty prayers.

Our relationship with God is so personal. No one can define it or measure it. Sometimes the closest moments to God come in silence, in a tear, in a quiet prayer inside, or even in a loving gaze toward the world.

Thank you again for your honest writing. It holds powerful ideas worth sitting with, and your words really touch the heart.

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Honesty FIrst's avatar

This is a load of shit, and clichè shit at that.

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layla qais's avatar

interesting comment, why?

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Honesty FIrst's avatar

This is a load of shit, and clichè shit at that.

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Emerald Breeze - KZ's avatar

Not sure what to say. We all have our own path and God will show you the beauty hidden within yours, even if it doesn’t mirror the experiences you’ve seen around. Love is the most important stage in wayfaring, and I too was moved by love to seek God more. Your words are stirring, and verses even more moving. I hope love carries you far, to God, to a full sky, and to a beautiful life in this world and the next.

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Loulou's avatar

I love this a lot

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